babyblueblue

i know...

2006-07-06T05:21:18Z

It has been soo long... for the past 2 or so years, on and off... I've known you since first year.... I can't help thinking about you and wanting to be by your side..... But then, you and I are separating like we are strangers, or rather, never knew each other before.... It's sad... it took me so many years to realize that you are just not interested to even maintain a friendship.....let alone a relationship....

Now I see your name, my heart doesn't skip a beat anymore... that's a signal to myself that I can finally let you go....
We are going to be traveling different paths.. even though I never get to tell you how I feel and what was on my mind...
Best wishes to your future and hope you'll be happy...... to my university crush, _________ .

Now... i just want to finish University and then move away from here... where I can just be myself and try not be everyone else out there....

To somewhere where I will learn to love and be loved in return....

Dear Jin-kun.......

2006-07-04T04:32:47Z

Today July 4th is Jin's bday... his 22nd.... so OMEDETOU OTANJOUBI, Jin-kun !!!!!!!!!!!! :D Best wishes for you.......

babyblueblue @ 2006-06-29T02:57:00

2006-06-29T06:58:57Z

There are so many uncertainties and unknown in the future.... I'll do my best!!!!

Life, fate... what can I do to make it better??

btw, where are you..........

babyblueblue @ 2006-06-21T00:57:00

2006-06-21T05:27:33Z

So I was taking a break from school work and browse these chinese forums... and when I look into the astrology sections I came across a few interesting things.

浪漫型 (生日日期︰2,7,9,11,18,20,27,29)

性格解構：簡單地講，她的個性不但溫婉浪漫，感情豐富，更是多愁善感。而且為人十分
敏感，懂得察顏觀色，很善解人意。此外，也熱愛和平。她的小缺點就是容易為一點小事而
受傷害。又因太過自我中心而缺乏與周圍協調的能力。感情用事亦是其中一個小毛病，往往
會因此而影響大局。此外，運氣雖然不錯，但如果過於任性，或者會碰上意想不到的挫折。

建議：看星星、到海邊走走，或者送本愛情小說給她都不錯。記得準備紙巾,隨時準備借個
肩膀給她。也要記住，她心靈有點脆弱，你要小心說話，以免講多錯多。

This quite true... i love to go star gazing and enjoy the evening, love the ocean and take walks on it. and yes... I do cry at sad parts of the drama or movies...... it fits quite well~~

Then there's this one...
戀愛數字是7

你對戀愛充滿詩情畫意及神秘感和夢幻感。你文靜，保守，不喜歡引人注意，而被你吸引的男性多屬這類型，他們特喜歡你獨立成熟而帶神秘感的性格，有時你的朋友和愛侶較為挑剔，要求很高，你喜歡與眾不同的男性，孤獨浪子型更深得你的心，不過最理想的還是博學多才的男性。最匹配的星座：巨蟹座，天蠍座和雙魚座。最佳男伴生日：7，16，25。

No way...... this is soo true too.... I like guys who are different? 孤獨浪子型更深得你的心...... hahah this is soo true. This type tends to give off the mysterious and i-don't-really-care vibe, but my curiosity always makes me wanna go and find out what he is really like!! 不過最理想的還是博學多才的男性 and this too... of course I like him to be good at whatever he decides to do and give it his all to do his best!!!! That's what I admire the most......

Then I went to check out another one...........

１代表感情表達能力

(1個1)：你屬於固執而不懂表達感情的人，故經常暗戀人。由於你都算理智，甚少被情所傷。 (I guess this means not much love experience?? Trying not to get hurt, therefore, one don't try it at all~)

２代表直覺度

(1個2)：你懂得顧及別人的感受，善於洞悉別人的想法，是一個可靠的朋友和情人。 (Yay!! This is good stuff... I think I'm like that... but sometimes, I care a little bit too much.............???)

５代表意志堅定度

(2個5)：你的意志並不堅定，容易半途而廢，往往事倍功半，想好好發揮才能，最好將精力放在創意活動上。 (hahah. .true too, my mom always tell me to never give up.... so NOW, I'm not like that anymore... if I fall, I have to learn to get up and walk and run again... Never despair because you trip, just need to learn to get up and go!!)

８代表智力和邏輯性

(1個：你智力一般，但邏輯性強，做事喜歡循序漸進，不喜歡預期以外的變化。 (ehhhhh.......... :| awww... i was hoping i'd have more intelligence, well i guess not...........)

９代表體貼度

(1個9)：你嘗試理解別人對感情的渴求，然後儘量配合。 (Yes.. this is me!)

All these personality quizzes.... Are they really me?? Am I really me??? Who am I??? What do I want in life?? I seem lost at the moment, but I should have some sort of an answer soon........ in the meantime.. I have been exercising 3-4 times a week and proud of myself!!!!

GANBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! You can do it!!!!!! Aim for your goal~~~~~~~~~~ You're half there...... just half more!!!

Yatta!!!!!!! My first creation!!

2006-06-09T06:37:10Z

YAY..... I can't tell you how happy I am right now... this is my first creation

I got the program to work and it looks good!!! :D OF COURSE... Jin looks good :P and definitely Bakanishi approved!!

Please DO NOT take a copy of my baby~~ ... or else credit "babyblueblue"

:D :D Can't stop smiling... now, I can go create something else next time!!

What to do??

2006-06-06T04:42:41Z

Recently I have always ask myself...

"Who do you live for??" you??? me????

Have I really been living for myself?? or for someone else..
Do I have control over my future, my life..

Things I want to do, can do, must do......... do they overlap?
Tradeoffs, there are always tradeoff......

Everything seems so certain just a while ago, and I was so ready for the change, looking forward to it, getting excited about it...
but once again, this hope is being taken away from me...
Just like a helium ballon, let it go and it flies high, but there are strings attached to bring it back down.....
I should be used to it by now, but why do I feel lost, and tired of it all....

More stuff happening on my bday?????

2006-05-30T20:48:38Z

Soo... as I was telling you how I was celebrating my bday~

That evening, I went out with my other friends and had a wonderful dinner... AND they paid for my share (thanks!!!) and the girls (Sheena,Phanie,Mandy) gave me a gift!!!! woohoo!!! Soo very happy~ I mean everyone loves presents, don't they?? The funny thing is .. Michelle gave me a tank top from Jacob.. and the girls bought the same tank top but in blue instead of purple... This is wonderful~~~~ now, I have 2 tanks with the same pattern, but in different colours... and btw, the blue tank has purple straps... :P

and afterwards, they all gave me a surprise when we all went back to the house and Michelle actually made a cake for me........ (awwww... how sweet is that!!!!!!!! Thank you thank you!!) Of course we have to have more pics with my old film camera!! (Just for my parents :D ) Afterwards, we all went downstairs to Ming's place and I was chatting it up with Aries and we all totally checked out Lam Fung's website!! :P Can't resist~~~ (okok..i know.. the hair may be a little too short this time.. but it'll grow back, dont worry!!) Then we all went back to our respective home and try to stay alive in this heat without any AC....

Glad to have great friends~ I guess the email from my parents will do.....no calls. :(

First Entry

2006-05-29T14:45:26Z

This is my first entry at livejournal... ahh. to kickstart this journal......

*drum rolls..................*

It's also my 21st BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY~~~~

This year's bday.. I didn't spend it with my family~
I spent it with my friends and it was AWESOME!!
First, we had a birthday bash during the weekend with other bday girls Michelle, and Juls, and my friend Holly came up to loo for us... (aww.. ur a sweetie!!)
It was good.. but we decided against anymore FUBAR for the summer... :P
and then Michelle gave me a gift~~ full of purply stuff!!!!!
(Purple is my favourite colour.. so that's why... hahah :D )

So for today, I'm gonna have dinner (wings to be exact) with my friends and roomies~~ :P
and to start off this new year with a bang... my neighbours downstairs set off the fire alarm.... hahah.. it's a fake fire alarm (noonooo.. they didn't really do this for me, just by accident :P ) and like 3 fire trucks and 1 police car came... ahah~ it's alll good~
They were nice about the fake alarm~

This is my first bday spent away from family.... well.. my parents are away on vacation... lol~ so cant really do anything about that :) ... it just feels strange because it's different from what I've been doing for the past 20 yrs....anyway, i gotta go .. i'll write more next time